As most of you already know, I have had a lot on my mind the last couple of days. My mind is heavy...my heart is heavy and I'm struggling to continue to be faithful. Waiting right now is the hardest part. That's always the hard part isn't it? And I really hope that I'm overreacting with all of this. Am I?? I think as a mother, it is only natural for me to overreact. I hope that is the case now.
When I was pregnant with Kainan, there were many things the doctors and specialists told me that really brought me down. They were preparing me for a miscarriage or stillbirth delivery. I picked up the bible, unsure where to turn to in it, so I opened The Book and read the first thing that I saw. This is what I read:
Ask, Seek, Knock
Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. -Matthew 7:7-8
This passage become somewhat of a motto to myself during my pregnancy. It helped me through everything because at the very time I felt so lost, this seemed to fit perfectly. And God not only brought me through it all, but also my nearly perfect son. (What?? He is! I have a very biased opinion though)
So I am trying with all of my might to be patient. (Something I've never been very good at!) I came across this video tonight and it brought me comfort.
Thanks for reading,