Monday, August 30, 2010
Unplanned exercise
I broke the van today! Not cool! SO, not cool! As I was pulling into the driveway today, the van kind of slid in, almost crashing into the garage & making me think the brakes were locking up on us. What the?!?!? We just replaced the brake pads about a month ago! Certainly, that wasn't the problem! So I put the van into reverse, because I couldn't leave it parked as it was. I am able to back up a small distance and put it into drive again, only the van won't go. "D" Drive. Nope, no chance this thing is moving! OH NO! So I get out, and look under the van thinking maybe I ran over something that my eyes didn't see...NOPE. And then I see it! The axle is broken! All I could say, was Aw, Crap! {My words were more unpleasant than that however, but I'll keep it PG-13 for this post!} Another, Aw, Crap! I had to call my husband and tell him the news. This was not going to be good! We only have the one vehicle between our family and he walks to work now as it is. Guess what!?!?! Looks as though I'm going to be walking Camden to the bus stop now as well! With a two year old in tow! {That oughtta be fun!} Yep, I'm going to be getting me some unplanned exercise in. Woohoo! NOT! 18 minutes {for someone that walks faster than I do} of mostly uphill walking, I hope I sleep well tonight!
Blog betrayal
Well, I haven't posted anything for a bit now. Truth is, I just don't have much to say! I know most of you probably can't believe that!! Not much has happened. Trying to get into the routine of school again.{I say this as I'm posting a blog at after 1 a.m. Not the best start to a routine, huh?!?} In addition to school starting, my brother in law has been in from Georgia all week, the kids love spending time with him. But that is the extent of our excitement. He leaves tomorrow and the children will be disappointed. Which in turn, will make me sad. :( We don't get to see much family since we live miles from most of them, so I am thankful that they have the opportunity to get to bond with him.
I took this picture at the park yesterday. Think it is pretty neat. We were standing at the bottom of a hill and the sun was shining through the trees on the top of the hill, almost giving it the illusion that the sun isn't in the sky.
I took this picture at the park yesterday. Think it is pretty neat. We were standing at the bottom of a hill and the sun was shining through the trees on the top of the hill, almost giving it the illusion that the sun isn't in the sky.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Through the years-Camden in pictures
My baby is growing up!! Time has flown by me! And I feel like it has whizzed by leaving nothing but a blur of short memories in its path! I can't believe Camden is going into fourth grade this year! So many new things for her! So many new responsibilities for her to take on! I won't be required to sign her agenda each night for homework. The discipline "warning system" has changed~3 strikes, you're out! She will be "switching classes" between two teachers. Lockers?!?! I didn't get a locker until grade 7!!
Here is a compilation of her school pictures through the years.
{Sigh}
{Smile}
{Tear}
Here is a compilation of her school pictures through the years.
{Sigh}
{Smile}
{Tear}
Saturday, August 21, 2010
5 Things
For this post, I'm going to tell you about five things going on in my life right now.
1. I sat through, {for the very first time in my life} an entire parade IN THE RAIN today!! Luckily, I remembered umbrellas! {And luckily, I love the rain!} But that didn't stop us all from being soaked to the skin! We still enjoyed the Canal Days parade on Main Street! =)
2. My feet hurt! {Even after my totally awesome husband rubbing them for me this afternoon!} [I'm just not used to being on them all day!]
3. I sometimes complain about my in~laws when they come to town. But they will be leaving soon, and I am admitting that I will miss them! They help me keep my sanity in check most days! {Somedays, not so much! But that is a rare occasion!}
4. The Resale & Craft Bazaar was fun. I always enjoy myself...I could sell absolutely nothing and be glad that I went through the motions of setting everything up {and let us not forget about the tearing down also!} pricing everything and finagling with customers...all because I got to have some time with good friends [and food!!].
5. I'm going to be really lonely when Camden starts school Tuesday. And I can't believe how much she has grown up!
1. I sat through, {for the very first time in my life} an entire parade IN THE RAIN today!! Luckily, I remembered umbrellas! {And luckily, I love the rain!} But that didn't stop us all from being soaked to the skin! We still enjoyed the Canal Days parade on Main Street! =)
2. My feet hurt! {Even after my totally awesome husband rubbing them for me this afternoon!} [I'm just not used to being on them all day!]
3. I sometimes complain about my in~laws when they come to town. But they will be leaving soon, and I am admitting that I will miss them! They help me keep my sanity in check most days! {Somedays, not so much! But that is a rare occasion!}
4. The Resale & Craft Bazaar was fun. I always enjoy myself...I could sell absolutely nothing and be glad that I went through the motions of setting everything up {and let us not forget about the tearing down also!} pricing everything and finagling with customers...all because I got to have some time with good friends [and food!!].
5. I'm going to be really lonely when Camden starts school Tuesday. And I can't believe how much she has grown up!
Thursday, August 19, 2010
My walk
There is many a controversy in Christianity. Among them, just to name a few, drinking & drunkards, judging & hypocrisy and so on and so forth. We've all heard the conversations, sat through some of the lectures and discussions. Weighed in on where we stand. There are many interpretations of scripture in The Bible. So who is to say which interpretation is the right interpretation? Only one man can I think of. Only one TRUE judge. After all, every Christian wants to believe they are going to Heaven. But every Christian also commits sin, points fingers or casts judgment upon a brother or sister. Scripture has several meanings or definitions in different eyes of different Christians. Do I consider myself a Christian? Yes, absolutely. But I have a long way to go. I began my journey into church for the first time as an adult on March 23, 2008. Why, you may ask, do I remember the date? Because it was Easter Sunday and the first time my family had ever been to church together. I've yet to read the bible cover to cover. Or give testimony to an entire church congregation. I have felt the AWESOME power of God move through me and an entire church sermon. But I"m learning as I go.
Recently Kainan was sick and it was a very testing time for me in my faith. But, I'm learning to trust God with every encounter and with every step along my way.
I've learned that God loves me more than I can ever imagine. And as much as I love my family, He loves them MORE! I have learned that for everything there is a reason. And a time. It will not happen in MY time, rather His time. My watch is worthless. I've also learned that Christians are not perfect (Even though some of them may think so!) This is how I view things...
Jesus turned water into wine. It is also said that Jesus may have had wine himself from time to time or different occasions.
Matthew 26:29
"I tell you, I will not drink of this fruit of the vine from now on until that day when I drink it anew with you in my Father’s kingdom.”
God commands to avoid drunkenness or being a drunkard. Do not be mastered or overcome by anything. Do not let your judgment be altered.
Ephesians 5:18
Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit.
I know every Christian should strive to be a role model to the weak. (I am NOT saying that a non believer is weak...just using terms from The Bible.) Should teach The Word of God. And help others to believe and see the love God has for each and every one of us.
Do I drink? I do. And as I do not drink in excess, I also do not consider myself to be a drunkard. Many, many people look down on me for that. But, I do not care. What does that make the person that shakes their finger at me? Does it not also make them a sinner? By passing judgment they are condemning themselves. 2 Peter 2:1-3 reads:
But false prophets also arose among the people, just as there will be false teachers among you, who will secretly bring in destructive heresies, even denying the Master who bought them, bringing upon themselves swift destruction. And many will follow their sensuality, and because of them the way of truth will be blasphemed. And in their greed they will exploit you with false words. Their condemnation from long ago is not idle, and their destruction is not asleep.
And Romans 2:3 this:
Do you suppose, O man—you who judge those who practice such things and yet do them yourself—that you will escape the judgment of God?
The first type of hypocrisy can be found in Matthew chapter 6.
In verse 2 Jesus says, "So when you give to the needy, do not announce it with trumpets, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and on the streets, to be honored by men. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in full." Jesus goes on to say, "And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by men. I tell you the truth, they have received their rewards in full."
Judging...I am guilty. I have in the past and even recently judged others. And I have become aware of my judging. And to those of which I have cast judgment upon, I can only apologize and hope to someday be forgiven. I have confessed of my sins to my God, and listened to Him when he has spoken to me. I continue to learn everyday. But I'm trying and striving to become a better person. And I think that is all I can continue to do.
I don't attend church regularly anymore. I love being in church. Everyone loves the warm, fuzzy feeling they may get while in attendance. I even like the feeling of conviction during the realization that, "Whoa, I've done wrong...thank you Lord, for redirecting me and guiding toward the right path!" I love nothing more than the great feeling of The Holy Spirit moving through me, taking my faith to a whole new level. (That part never gets old!!)
I believe that I am here, alive and well, breathing this air because of the Awesome God we serve. He WILL come back some day...sooner, rather than later. I believe that He and NO OTHER will be the one I answer to on Judgment Day. I praise Him! And give Him the glory. Nothing in this life is mine. It ALL belongs to Him. I've simply been borrowing it. Until the day He comes for us and we all face judgment.
But I also am the only one other than He that knows my relationship with God. I know which paths, tunnels, detours and direction that I have taken on my walk with God. I have never been alone on my journeys, for He has always been walking right beside me.
Recently Kainan was sick and it was a very testing time for me in my faith. But, I'm learning to trust God with every encounter and with every step along my way.
I've learned that God loves me more than I can ever imagine. And as much as I love my family, He loves them MORE! I have learned that for everything there is a reason. And a time. It will not happen in MY time, rather His time. My watch is worthless. I've also learned that Christians are not perfect (Even though some of them may think so!) This is how I view things...
Jesus turned water into wine. It is also said that Jesus may have had wine himself from time to time or different occasions.
Matthew 26:29
"I tell you, I will not drink of this fruit of the vine from now on until that day when I drink it anew with you in my Father’s kingdom.”
God commands to avoid drunkenness or being a drunkard. Do not be mastered or overcome by anything. Do not let your judgment be altered.
Ephesians 5:18
Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit.
I know every Christian should strive to be a role model to the weak. (I am NOT saying that a non believer is weak...just using terms from The Bible.) Should teach The Word of God. And help others to believe and see the love God has for each and every one of us.
Do I drink? I do. And as I do not drink in excess, I also do not consider myself to be a drunkard. Many, many people look down on me for that. But, I do not care. What does that make the person that shakes their finger at me? Does it not also make them a sinner? By passing judgment they are condemning themselves. 2 Peter 2:1-3 reads:
But false prophets also arose among the people, just as there will be false teachers among you, who will secretly bring in destructive heresies, even denying the Master who bought them, bringing upon themselves swift destruction. And many will follow their sensuality, and because of them the way of truth will be blasphemed. And in their greed they will exploit you with false words. Their condemnation from long ago is not idle, and their destruction is not asleep.
And Romans 2:3 this:
Do you suppose, O man—you who judge those who practice such things and yet do them yourself—that you will escape the judgment of God?
The first type of hypocrisy can be found in Matthew chapter 6.
In verse 2 Jesus says, "So when you give to the needy, do not announce it with trumpets, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and on the streets, to be honored by men. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in full." Jesus goes on to say, "And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by men. I tell you the truth, they have received their rewards in full."
Judging...I am guilty. I have in the past and even recently judged others. And I have become aware of my judging. And to those of which I have cast judgment upon, I can only apologize and hope to someday be forgiven. I have confessed of my sins to my God, and listened to Him when he has spoken to me. I continue to learn everyday. But I'm trying and striving to become a better person. And I think that is all I can continue to do.
I don't attend church regularly anymore. I love being in church. Everyone loves the warm, fuzzy feeling they may get while in attendance. I even like the feeling of conviction during the realization that, "Whoa, I've done wrong...thank you Lord, for redirecting me and guiding toward the right path!" I love nothing more than the great feeling of The Holy Spirit moving through me, taking my faith to a whole new level. (That part never gets old!!)
I believe that I am here, alive and well, breathing this air because of the Awesome God we serve. He WILL come back some day...sooner, rather than later. I believe that He and NO OTHER will be the one I answer to on Judgment Day. I praise Him! And give Him the glory. Nothing in this life is mine. It ALL belongs to Him. I've simply been borrowing it. Until the day He comes for us and we all face judgment.
But I also am the only one other than He that knows my relationship with God. I know which paths, tunnels, detours and direction that I have taken on my walk with God. I have never been alone on my journeys, for He has always been walking right beside me.
Monday, August 16, 2010
Spring Cleaning
If you know me, you know that my computer has to be broken for me to have a clean house. Well, my computer wasn't broken but my house was clean yesterday! As I have been gathering things for the local children's resale, I have been cleaning and tossing! So as it isn't the spring season, I have definitely been cleaning! (With the omission of laundry, but that NEVER ceases!{Oh & the dungeoun...but I ain't goin' down there}) I have many, many things to take with me this weekend...I'm hoping one table will be enough! Also hoping to be able to raffle off the diaper cake I made last spring.
Amidst all of the house wreckage and commotion, I decided to look up the exact meaning of "Spring Cleaning" and where it originates from. It is actually quite interesting.
**Definitions & origins excerpted from wikipedia.com
It has been suggested that the origins of spring cleaning date back to the Iranian Norouz, the Persian new year, which falls on the first day of spring[citation needed]. Iranians continue the practice of "khooneh tekouni" which literally means "shaking the house" just before the new year. Everything in the house is thoroughly cleaned, from the drapes to the furniture. A similar tradition is the Scottish "New Year's cleaning" on Hogmanay (December 31), a practice now also widespread in Ireland, New Zealand, and to some extent North America.
In North America and northern Europe, the custom found an especial practical value due to those regions' continental and wet climates. During the 19th century in America, prior to the advent of the vacuum cleaner, March was often the best time for dusting because it was getting warm enough to open windows and doors (but not warm enough for insects to be a problem), and the high winds could carry the dust out of the house. For the same reason, modern rural households often use the month of March for cleaning projects involving the use of chemical products which generate fumes.
I can't say I've ever actually SHAKEN the house, but yesterday I believe I was the closest I have ever been to doing so. :) Of course, the spree continued this evening as I proceeded to tackle the shed. But only after my wonderful & caring husband pulled the boxes and totes from the deep, dark webs. :( And I ventured on with my expedition through the maze of boxes. It was then that I realized, I wasn't going to get done with it by nightfall! There was simply too much to do! I got finished with what I could and let the rest sit...in the yard. So much for my nice clean house! Because after my decision to scuffle through the miscellaneous items outdoors, my clean indoor living area was getting destroyed. Dinner was yet to be made and my chores were not done inside. Boo hoo!! So, my yard is a wreck! My living room is a disaster. And since dinner was on the table so late tonight, it still remains on the table and stove waiting, no begging to be put away. It will get done before bedtime, but the remainder of the mess........it lies where it will. Tomorrow is another day!
Amidst all of the house wreckage and commotion, I decided to look up the exact meaning of "Spring Cleaning" and where it originates from. It is actually quite interesting.
**Definitions & origins excerpted from wikipedia.com
It has been suggested that the origins of spring cleaning date back to the Iranian Norouz, the Persian new year, which falls on the first day of spring[citation needed]. Iranians continue the practice of "khooneh tekouni" which literally means "shaking the house" just before the new year. Everything in the house is thoroughly cleaned, from the drapes to the furniture. A similar tradition is the Scottish "New Year's cleaning" on Hogmanay (December 31), a practice now also widespread in Ireland, New Zealand, and to some extent North America.
In North America and northern Europe, the custom found an especial practical value due to those regions' continental and wet climates. During the 19th century in America, prior to the advent of the vacuum cleaner, March was often the best time for dusting because it was getting warm enough to open windows and doors (but not warm enough for insects to be a problem), and the high winds could carry the dust out of the house. For the same reason, modern rural households often use the month of March for cleaning projects involving the use of chemical products which generate fumes.
I can't say I've ever actually SHAKEN the house, but yesterday I believe I was the closest I have ever been to doing so. :) Of course, the spree continued this evening as I proceeded to tackle the shed. But only after my wonderful & caring husband pulled the boxes and totes from the deep, dark webs. :( And I ventured on with my expedition through the maze of boxes. It was then that I realized, I wasn't going to get done with it by nightfall! There was simply too much to do! I got finished with what I could and let the rest sit...in the yard. So much for my nice clean house! Because after my decision to scuffle through the miscellaneous items outdoors, my clean indoor living area was getting destroyed. Dinner was yet to be made and my chores were not done inside. Boo hoo!! So, my yard is a wreck! My living room is a disaster. And since dinner was on the table so late tonight, it still remains on the table and stove waiting, no begging to be put away. It will get done before bedtime, but the remainder of the mess........it lies where it will. Tomorrow is another day!
Sunday, August 15, 2010
*Chugga, Chugga, Choooo Choooo*
All Aboooaaard!
I've decided to start planning early for Kainan's 3rd birthday party. Yes, I know, it's August, he turns 3 in November. Hey, I said early!
Trains is the theme...the theme is trains. I am wanting to stay away from Thomas the train or other "characters" and stick strictly to the train itself. I'm going to make the invitation look like train tickets and have train tracks going through the house. I need some pictures of trains though. If any of you, maybe in the Jasper area, {hint, hint!!} have any pictures of trains and you don't mind sending me an electronic copy, I would LOVE to have them! I suggested Jasper only because I know they have remodeled the old train station again. I really don't care where the pictures come from if you're going to send them. :) And they don't have to be new or pretty. And if anyone knows where I can get train postcards, unused, that would be great too! I've got many ideas that I want to explore. And I can't wait, definitely excited for this!
I've decided to start planning early for Kainan's 3rd birthday party. Yes, I know, it's August, he turns 3 in November. Hey, I said early!
Trains is the theme...the theme is trains. I am wanting to stay away from Thomas the train or other "characters" and stick strictly to the train itself. I'm going to make the invitation look like train tickets and have train tracks going through the house. I need some pictures of trains though. If any of you, maybe in the Jasper area, {hint, hint!!} have any pictures of trains and you don't mind sending me an electronic copy, I would LOVE to have them! I suggested Jasper only because I know they have remodeled the old train station again. I really don't care where the pictures come from if you're going to send them. :) And they don't have to be new or pretty. And if anyone knows where I can get train postcards, unused, that would be great too! I've got many ideas that I want to explore. And I can't wait, definitely excited for this!
Miscellaneous information post
Warning!! This post is filled with mindless, useless and unwanted information, also known as my thoughts. That being said, here it is.
I upgraded my picnic account...finally...as many times as I've spontaneously upgraded the smallest, one month, $4.95 a month package, I could have had a one year account easy! Maybe even twice. I use it so often though, that I am glad I did. And I printed some pictures today through Walgreens, even though I prefer to use a different store. I've had to argue with Walgreens about copyright and my pictures do not have copyright protection...and even if they did, THEY'RE MY PICTURES!! But whatever, I had 25 free prints through them and I used them up. :)
A dear friend of mine was married last month...this is the gift I made for them.
I had the photos printed individually and edited them all to sepia tone. I found a deep brown frame with matting and {viola}, instant wedding gift! Although, I do have to say, it took some time to find pictures that I was happy with.
I also have 25 free prints through a different site and will be happy when I can get them ordered and shipped. I have so much catching up to do on my scrap books! Hence the reason for the sudden photo printing! But, opening accounts at the various stores that offer online photo uploading and printing, I can often get prints for free! FREE is good! Especially on the mementos that document the precious candids of my children.
Speaking of scrap books, here are a few shots of my favorite pages. Again, be warned! I have not taken any classes, so they aren't perfect pages. Although, I think it is the unperfect pages that make a page perfect! :)
****** It really, really bothers me that I was unable to perfectly crop out the carpet in the background of these pictures! Some days I swear I have OCD tendencies!!
This next piece of info isn't useless...but it makes me VERY happy! My brother, that I couldn't live without, is home from deployment! Africa this time! I couldn't ask for a better role model! You can't pick your siblings, but even if I could, I wouldn't have picked any other person to be my older brother! He has always done what he had to to make sure I knew he was always and will always be here for me! So don't mess with me, I have an older brother that would gladly kick yer butt! :) Okay, I'm not a violent person, so chances are, if you messed with me you wouldn't get your butt kicked...BUT he would make sure it didn't happen again. I wouldn't change any of my siblings if I could. So if any of you are reading this, don't fret, I love you! <3
I had a great weekend with my family and girl friends. And then even still got a lot accomplished around the house today!
If I'm not mistaken, I think that is the entirety of my ramblings tonight...well, the useless ones, anyway!
Peace Out!
I upgraded my picnic account...finally...as many times as I've spontaneously upgraded the smallest, one month, $4.95 a month package, I could have had a one year account easy! Maybe even twice. I use it so often though, that I am glad I did. And I printed some pictures today through Walgreens, even though I prefer to use a different store. I've had to argue with Walgreens about copyright and my pictures do not have copyright protection...and even if they did, THEY'RE MY PICTURES!! But whatever, I had 25 free prints through them and I used them up. :)
A dear friend of mine was married last month...this is the gift I made for them.
I had the photos printed individually and edited them all to sepia tone. I found a deep brown frame with matting and {viola}, instant wedding gift! Although, I do have to say, it took some time to find pictures that I was happy with.
I also have 25 free prints through a different site and will be happy when I can get them ordered and shipped. I have so much catching up to do on my scrap books! Hence the reason for the sudden photo printing! But, opening accounts at the various stores that offer online photo uploading and printing, I can often get prints for free! FREE is good! Especially on the mementos that document the precious candids of my children.
Speaking of scrap books, here are a few shots of my favorite pages. Again, be warned! I have not taken any classes, so they aren't perfect pages. Although, I think it is the unperfect pages that make a page perfect! :)
****** It really, really bothers me that I was unable to perfectly crop out the carpet in the background of these pictures! Some days I swear I have OCD tendencies!!
This next piece of info isn't useless...but it makes me VERY happy! My brother, that I couldn't live without, is home from deployment! Africa this time! I couldn't ask for a better role model! You can't pick your siblings, but even if I could, I wouldn't have picked any other person to be my older brother! He has always done what he had to to make sure I knew he was always and will always be here for me! So don't mess with me, I have an older brother that would gladly kick yer butt! :) Okay, I'm not a violent person, so chances are, if you messed with me you wouldn't get your butt kicked...BUT he would make sure it didn't happen again. I wouldn't change any of my siblings if I could. So if any of you are reading this, don't fret, I love you! <3
I had a great weekend with my family and girl friends. And then even still got a lot accomplished around the house today!
If I'm not mistaken, I think that is the entirety of my ramblings tonight...well, the useless ones, anyway!
Peace Out!
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Exhaustion
As much that has happened in the last two weeks, I am tired. Drained. I am wore out. Exhausted! Funeral, traveling, sickness in the family, sickness outside of the family, weddings, and my husband out of town. My entire being wants to sleeeeep. Without the interruption of Mom, Moooooooooooooom! And every 3 hour medication dispersal's. The girls are taking me out tomorrow night. That should be fun. Then a birthday date with my hubby Saturday. I'm looking forward to that! I haven't really got to spend time with him during all of this crazy that has been going on. And this heat doesn't make it any better! Goodnight all!
Kainan fell asleep on me today!
Kainan fell asleep on me today!
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Fail us not
Results from the blood culture came back negative. No growth! WHAT A RELIEF! Thank God!!
I want to thank all of you for the thoughts and prayers. I was quite a mess throughout all of this. On the way to the doctors office yesterday I heard this song. After everything I was worrying about, this song gave me comfort and strength to find the faith that I thought I was unable to find due to all of my worries and fears.
This situation has definitely reminded me not to take anything for granted! Life is so precious. And you never know when obstacles will be thrown your way. This is the first time my faith was tested so strongly...and this was the first time I didn't know what was going to happen. Thanks to many prayers and many great friends and family for all of the support!
I want to thank all of you for the thoughts and prayers. I was quite a mess throughout all of this. On the way to the doctors office yesterday I heard this song. After everything I was worrying about, this song gave me comfort and strength to find the faith that I thought I was unable to find due to all of my worries and fears.
This situation has definitely reminded me not to take anything for granted! Life is so precious. And you never know when obstacles will be thrown your way. This is the first time my faith was tested so strongly...and this was the first time I didn't know what was going to happen. Thanks to many prayers and many great friends and family for all of the support!
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Weight
As most of you already know, I have had a lot on my mind the last couple of days. My mind is heavy...my heart is heavy and I'm struggling to continue to be faithful. Waiting right now is the hardest part. That's always the hard part isn't it? And I really hope that I'm overreacting with all of this. Am I?? I think as a mother, it is only natural for me to overreact. I hope that is the case now.
When I was pregnant with Kainan, there were many things the doctors and specialists told me that really brought me down. They were preparing me for a miscarriage or stillbirth delivery. I picked up the bible, unsure where to turn to in it, so I opened The Book and read the first thing that I saw. This is what I read:
Ask, Seek, Knock
Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. -Matthew 7:7-8
This passage become somewhat of a motto to myself during my pregnancy. It helped me through everything because at the very time I felt so lost, this seemed to fit perfectly. And God not only brought me through it all, but also my nearly perfect son. (What?? He is! I have a very biased opinion though)
So I am trying with all of my might to be patient. (Something I've never been very good at!) I came across this video tonight and it brought me comfort.
Thanks for reading,
When I was pregnant with Kainan, there were many things the doctors and specialists told me that really brought me down. They were preparing me for a miscarriage or stillbirth delivery. I picked up the bible, unsure where to turn to in it, so I opened The Book and read the first thing that I saw. This is what I read:
Ask, Seek, Knock
Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. -Matthew 7:7-8
This passage become somewhat of a motto to myself during my pregnancy. It helped me through everything because at the very time I felt so lost, this seemed to fit perfectly. And God not only brought me through it all, but also my nearly perfect son. (What?? He is! I have a very biased opinion though)
So I am trying with all of my might to be patient. (Something I've never been very good at!) I came across this video tonight and it brought me comfort.
Thanks for reading,
Lord, hear my prayer!
I am in panic mode today. This is the day we are supposed to get results back from Kainan's complete blood count. I am a wreck! These results could change our lives. With his white blood count being too high, it could be a series of different things. Of course the word stuck in my mind is leukemia. That is a very scary word. And when that word is associated with your child, it is even scarier!! Regardless of the results today, I have an even deeper respect for parents that have children with chronic illnesses and disease.
And as hard as it is, I KNOW this is out of my hands. His hands are much bigger than my world. He is bigger than all my sorrows, fears, anxiety, worry....He is bigger than ALL of my problems. Every ounce of me KNOWS I am to trust Him, to have faith in Him...it is so hard to do that when your child is involved. Which brings me to this very known verse.
"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
-John 3:16
I will admit, I don't think I could do it. I don't think any mother could do it.
A friend of mine emailed the following to me today and the tears just flowed.
You created Kainan’s inmost being; you knit him together in my womb.
I praise you because he is fearfully & wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well,
His frame was not hidden from you when he was made in the secret place. When he was woven together in the depths of the earth,
Your eyes saw his unformed body. All the days ordained for him were written in your book before one of them came to be.
I have always been able to say that the things in my life are not mine. None of it is mine...the things I use every day. My phone, this house, this computer...none of it is mine, rather His that he has given to me and allowed for me to use. But my children???
They are mine, right? I want to keep them...forever. I don't ever want him to take them from me. In my eyes, mind, heart, soul...they have always been MINE. But the above passage reminds me that even though they are my children, it is not me who made them. I carried them, and I love them. But I was given the opportunity to care for them. To show them love. To bring them up with good, Christian values. He ALLOWED them to be my children.
Could use some prayer today...not only for the results of these tests, but also my heart. It is very heavy today as I realize there are so many things I have done to blind myself in the world of things around me. To ignore things that I don't want to admit.
Thank you!
And as hard as it is, I KNOW this is out of my hands. His hands are much bigger than my world. He is bigger than all my sorrows, fears, anxiety, worry....He is bigger than ALL of my problems. Every ounce of me KNOWS I am to trust Him, to have faith in Him...it is so hard to do that when your child is involved. Which brings me to this very known verse.
"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
-John 3:16
I will admit, I don't think I could do it. I don't think any mother could do it.
A friend of mine emailed the following to me today and the tears just flowed.
You created Kainan’s inmost being; you knit him together in my womb.
I praise you because he is fearfully & wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well,
His frame was not hidden from you when he was made in the secret place. When he was woven together in the depths of the earth,
Your eyes saw his unformed body. All the days ordained for him were written in your book before one of them came to be.
I have always been able to say that the things in my life are not mine. None of it is mine...the things I use every day. My phone, this house, this computer...none of it is mine, rather His that he has given to me and allowed for me to use. But my children???
They are mine, right? I want to keep them...forever. I don't ever want him to take them from me. In my eyes, mind, heart, soul...they have always been MINE. But the above passage reminds me that even though they are my children, it is not me who made them. I carried them, and I love them. But I was given the opportunity to care for them. To show them love. To bring them up with good, Christian values. He ALLOWED them to be my children.
Could use some prayer today...not only for the results of these tests, but also my heart. It is very heavy today as I realize there are so many things I have done to blind myself in the world of things around me. To ignore things that I don't want to admit.
Thank you!
Monday, August 9, 2010
Illness
Kainan woke this morning with a blazing hot fever. (Nothing new during these last couple of weeks!) He had been running fever since late Saturday evening anyway, but today, wow, today he was obviously taking a beating from this darn fever! And Jim is out of town! (Sighs!!) Fever in a child scares me anyway, but he has heart issues and I just never know what to expect from a fever. I called the pediatricians office and they couldn't get him in for 3 days. 3 days!! Grr! I have a lot of frustrations with the service and professionalism we get from them there anyway, this just added to it. (Even though, I know it really wasn't their fault that they had no open appointments available.) So, they referred me to the Emergency Department. Four hours of bright lights and boredom, worry and fear and two anxious kids. They swabbed his mouth, they drew three vials of blood, they did chest x-rays and they did a urinalysis. A lot for a hot, tired, sick, little two year old boy! The swab came back negative for strep. The complete blood count came back with the results of his white blood count being double what it should be; which means, infection, not a virus. (Sigh, all that's going through my mind at this point is worry & fear!) Chest x-ray came back okay, no pneumonia. Urine-just urine. No definitive answers. So we (Camden & myself) watched as they injected my innocent little son with two shots of penicillin. :( They are treating it as if he has an upper respiratory infection and we are to follow up with the pediatrician.
I am SO proud of him though! He didn't cry when they stuck him for blood, fussed a second when they took the needle out, that's it! And he fussed a bit when they injected the penicillin. (I would have even cried then! I don't hate needles, but I hate shots!!) Camden teared up, watching her little brother go through all of this. They may argue and bicker back and forth, but they are friends. :) Reminds me of my brother and sister when I was younger. :)
Well, Kainan seems to be acting fine now, (Motrin must be working) he is pulling cables and USB cords out of the computer! And getting yelled at by his big sis! LOL Who would have thought that would sound so sweet to my ears!
I am SO proud of him though! He didn't cry when they stuck him for blood, fussed a second when they took the needle out, that's it! And he fussed a bit when they injected the penicillin. (I would have even cried then! I don't hate needles, but I hate shots!!) Camden teared up, watching her little brother go through all of this. They may argue and bicker back and forth, but they are friends. :) Reminds me of my brother and sister when I was younger. :)
Well, Kainan seems to be acting fine now, (Motrin must be working) he is pulling cables and USB cords out of the computer! And getting yelled at by his big sis! LOL Who would have thought that would sound so sweet to my ears!
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Week end
I feel like I should be saying...Oh, what a busy week we've had. But, sadly, no, we haven't had a busy week at all! I got addicted to a couple of new games on gamehouse and facebook, got a new cell phone THAT I LOVE, and put off doing any housework that was beyond "just picking up." What a procrastinator I've been!!! Our washing machine is broken (sigh) and the laundry has piled up so many times, so many mountains....I've been smelling my clothes before wearing them. Have you ever done that? Sure you have! We all have... RIGHT?? :/ We put new (When I say we, I really mean my husband Jim) brakes on the van. The entire trip back from Jasper last weekend the brakes were grinding when we applied pressure to them! Yikes! But Jim had to be at work the very next morning, so there wasn't any chance of staying and getting them replace the next day.
Kainan was sick (again) this week! Poor little fella! And Camden spent a lot of time with her step grandparents. Friday consisted of sun and fun at the waterpark-Camden is still pink from the sun. She got the burn due to her resistance to apply sunblock regardless of my nagging her! Stubborn child! I wonder where she gets that? (Thinking and rubbing chin...........surely
not.....from...................nah!!)
Yep, that was our week. Lazy days spent doing pretty much, well, nothing!
OH, and I met my neighbors for the first time! Moved here June 1st, got a late introduction, but I suppose it's better than never at all!
Ciao!
I'll end this post with a beautiful picture of the sky tonight as we were leaving walmart. Isn't it absolutely gorgeous!?!?!
Kainan was sick (again) this week! Poor little fella! And Camden spent a lot of time with her step grandparents. Friday consisted of sun and fun at the waterpark-Camden is still pink from the sun. She got the burn due to her resistance to apply sunblock regardless of my nagging her! Stubborn child! I wonder where she gets that? (Thinking and rubbing chin...........surely
not.....from...................nah!!)
Yep, that was our week. Lazy days spent doing pretty much, well, nothing!
OH, and I met my neighbors for the first time! Moved here June 1st, got a late introduction, but I suppose it's better than never at all!
Ciao!
I'll end this post with a beautiful picture of the sky tonight as we were leaving walmart. Isn't it absolutely gorgeous!?!?!
Friday, August 6, 2010
Yummy Eats
Okay, if you know me, (If you're reading this, I hope you know me, otherwise, I may get a little creeped out!!) you know that of all of the foods out there, I prefer those from the glorious, not good for you but oooooh so good category. SUGAR!! :) I recently acquired this recipe from my mother in law and it is scrumptious! Thought I would share! Good eatin!
Pineapple Dump Cake
2 c sugar
2tsp soda
1 cup chopped walnuts (optional)
dash of salt
2c. all purpose flour
2 eggs
1 tsp vanilla
1 can crushed pineapple-undrained
Dump all cake ingredients together in bowl. Stir well.
Pour into greased 9x13 pan.
Bake at 350* for 40-45 minutes.
Cream cheese icing
1 stick softened margarine
1 1/3 c sifted powdered sugar
1 tsp vanilla
8 oz. softened cream cheese
Combine all ingredients in bowl, beat well. Spread on hot cake.
Doesn't that sound delicious!! Yum!
Pineapple Dump Cake
2 c sugar
2tsp soda
1 cup chopped walnuts (optional)
dash of salt
2c. all purpose flour
2 eggs
1 tsp vanilla
1 can crushed pineapple-undrained
Dump all cake ingredients together in bowl. Stir well.
Pour into greased 9x13 pan.
Bake at 350* for 40-45 minutes.
Cream cheese icing
1 stick softened margarine
1 1/3 c sifted powdered sugar
1 tsp vanilla
8 oz. softened cream cheese
Combine all ingredients in bowl, beat well. Spread on hot cake.
Doesn't that sound delicious!! Yum!
Faith & Love
After many, many months, I'm finally getting down to my very first blog. What took me so long?
I'm dedicating my first post to a dear friend of mine who is ultimately the strongest woman I know. I won't completely go into detail , but I'll give a hint of her background, just for understanding. She is my age, (28, I'll be 29 in a few weeks) diabetic- insulin dependent, hysterectomy at the young age of 26, she has 3 of her own children and 1 that she cares for and accepts with so much love you would never know she didn't give birth to him. She had many complications during her last pregnancy, only to bring a miracle baby to this earth! Baby "B" was born with many issues with her heart and at only a few days old had her first surgery. They have been battling issues with it since. And just recently, my dear friend was diagnosed with breast cancer. I literally just realized this moments ago. (I'm horrible at keeping up with her blog) Even after all of this going on in her life, she continues to have faith in The Lord. She is very dependent on Him to bring her through it...if it is His will. She is very family oriented, but her faith in God is even more amazing! Through my eyes, she is the true definition of a super hero! Not only is she a great mother, friend, wife, sister, daughter and anything that can be put into this category, she is truly an inspiration to me and many, many others! Even though things bring her down, she rarely shows it. Rather continues to be faithful, pushing forward and trusting in The Lord. I cannot express how motivational she is and she doesn't even have to try! I am so happy and so lucky to be able to call her my friend. I love her and I pray that she and her family find comfort during this difficult time.
Dear Lord Jesus,
I ask you to please pray for this family.
Please help them to find strength and hope
throughout this difficult and fearful time that
they are enduring. I pray that you give them peace
and comfort in all that they encounter and help them
always have faith in you, Lord.
In Jesus sweet name,
Amen
I'm dedicating my first post to a dear friend of mine who is ultimately the strongest woman I know. I won't completely go into detail , but I'll give a hint of her background, just for understanding. She is my age, (28, I'll be 29 in a few weeks) diabetic- insulin dependent, hysterectomy at the young age of 26, she has 3 of her own children and 1 that she cares for and accepts with so much love you would never know she didn't give birth to him. She had many complications during her last pregnancy, only to bring a miracle baby to this earth! Baby "B" was born with many issues with her heart and at only a few days old had her first surgery. They have been battling issues with it since. And just recently, my dear friend was diagnosed with breast cancer. I literally just realized this moments ago. (I'm horrible at keeping up with her blog) Even after all of this going on in her life, she continues to have faith in The Lord. She is very dependent on Him to bring her through it...if it is His will. She is very family oriented, but her faith in God is even more amazing! Through my eyes, she is the true definition of a super hero! Not only is she a great mother, friend, wife, sister, daughter and anything that can be put into this category, she is truly an inspiration to me and many, many others! Even though things bring her down, she rarely shows it. Rather continues to be faithful, pushing forward and trusting in The Lord. I cannot express how motivational she is and she doesn't even have to try! I am so happy and so lucky to be able to call her my friend. I love her and I pray that she and her family find comfort during this difficult time.
Dear Lord Jesus,
I ask you to please pray for this family.
Please help them to find strength and hope
throughout this difficult and fearful time that
they are enduring. I pray that you give them peace
and comfort in all that they encounter and help them
always have faith in you, Lord.
In Jesus sweet name,
Amen
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